Waiting is suffering

In recent days , buy I have had so strong longing for several matters. I know that the feeling which i have is not good. I can’t control it. I wish that I would have no distance between here and there; I wish that I would get another suit; I wish that I would get a smile. now these are only wishes. now I can’t do anything except waiting. My feeling is chaos. sometime i feel anxious, sales sometime depressive. I think that the cause of chaos is good result which i want to get. I’m stil here . I’m still waiting.